Wallowing

I think I’ll just let myself wallow for a day or two, wallow and bleed. Bleed and wallow. I’ll be a big clotty mess. Mmmmm. While I’m at it, I’ll speculate as to what is causing my 101 fever and raging back/chest pain when I swallow, with a neg. sono and neg. bloodwork. PCP says that it’s likely esophageal spasm and reflux. She wants me on Prevacid. I HATE medicine. HATE it, but I guess I’ll give it a try and see what happens. I certaintly would hate to interupt my bleeding and wallowing with another pain filled sleepless night.

*Obviously, this is pretty dramatic. I do not need to be on suicide watch or anything like that. But I’m sure flushing my partially implanted babies down the toliet is really going to suck. On the plus side, I can drink alcohol and eat Advil.

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    Ruby Dabling said,

    I’m not quite sure what to say, but I DO hope that you’ll be feeling better after all of your wallowing and bleeding.

    Drinking hot chocolate and eating xanax might make things a bit nicer, no?

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    Emily said,

    We’re so sorry these babies were not the ones supposed to come into this world. We hope you feel better (physically and emotionally) soon. In the meantime, take all the time you need to greive your little ones, and hug your much bigger little one tightly!

  3. 3

    lumos said,

    So sorry for your pain and hope u feel better!~


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